I thought I couldn’t make it without you, surprisingly I did..yet there’s missing piece here in my heart..tht’s piece of you..
I can’t imagine what my life would be..But eventually, it’s coming back to me now..
It’s me who have to choose..for things that supposed to do..
But I have learned somehow, that I can walk this life tomorrow, for better or worse, with or without you..
I’m happy..If you ask me, I’m telling you I do..
Look, yesterday I was living my live as Gabriella..I’m sort of like it..loving the name as much the soap opera as well..Or maybe I’m truly living it..living soap opera life? Oww..probably..
I’m sad..sometimes..I don’t know what I’m crying for..
They say it’s such a waste to cry for something unworthy..So, what kind of something that worth it? Just cry, everytime you want to do it..There’s no law upon it..
I’m being so true to myself..No doubt, ask me then..
Which part that I can really hide? Not much..I enjoy to be someone mysterious..but I don’t think that’s me..I let the world to know what thing and with whom I’m in love with..
I’m what I am..I can be anything I want..but I want to be simply like this..
And this is me..^^
I talked to myself that I could handle all these crazy things..I was convinced that I don’t need anyone to get these things to be fixed..But I chose you..And what did I get? I got nothing..
If I can do these things alone, I don’t need anyone..But I let myself to come over and reach to your hands..
I didn’t see your open hands, I didn’t hear that soothing voice..I didn’t find the love that I always cling to..
Why this is so hard? I want you, I need you..
I feel like I could fall..could you just hold me? Hold my hands..Like you always do..
Everything’s just fine, but I don’t know what’s wrong , so just tell me wht’s going on? Do you really want to stab me from behind? Then, just do it..but not to the people that I really love and care about..
You’ll never really get me, cause I know you’re just trying to distract me and catch my attention..Sounds old school, huh? You’re such a tricky..You think you are good enough to take all these things away from me..Is that what you’re thinking about? Then, you’re all wrong..I’m much better than what are you thinking of..
Come and we fight, don’t keep yourself hanging up..
He’s the one I’ve been falling for..until now..
Who knows that this 17 y.o good-looking boy could really steal my heart?
Honestly, I’ve never thought that I could fall for someone like him..
I was falling for David Cook at first, but everything’s suddenly changed after I heard his miraculous voice last May..(it was too late..but better thn never, I think)
A bit of regret because I can’t be with him from the very first time..I was in a rush catching ‘em up through Youtube and googling..
He’s losing the crown also..hiks, hiks..but I think it has happened for his sake of course..Nothing happens without any reason behind..
The stunning is continued, of course..considering the main rule of ‘Anie’s wonderland’ is ‘personality’..OMG, he has tons of it..*faint
And now..after 107 days over..someone’s flirting, and I thought he’s Dan Humphrey, haha..I feel like I’m cheating over my sweet David..
What I can say? He is irresistible, cute, smart..my man, and he’s so me..dang it!!
Should I leave David behind? Some may say definitely must..haha..
David, I’m watching him almost everyday on my TV, and getting overwhelmed..
Line of ‘Crush’ is running on my head..Am I crazy or falling in love, or is it really just another crush?’..I don’t know..I’m in the crossroad..
I must be crazy or even stupid on writing these creepy things down. I don’t even come to any thought that u would read these ones. All I know, I need to expel crazy stuff inside me..and I prefer to say this is unintentionally destined, haha..
It was your voice that I’ve been falling for, but now it’s your tons of personality..I’ve never felt this way, but after u walked in, it was like more than just a breeze..the air is filled with u..and only u..it makes me such a biased, but I don’t care..
I’ve been through a lot these days, and you helped me..uhmm..I think I let u help me..I choose it, and I mean it..Friends think that I’m crazy, even myself think of it..is this just another euphoria? I don’t know..but I like to be in this moment for a while..Even if this is just a dream, don’t wake me up..
Great and now I become an idiot, I blew up everything with you-know-what-I-mean things, I must tell you that I have to, otherwise I’ll get exploded, haha..and now I believe that I have such an obsessive disorder and I don’t think I’d like to be cured, :D..
Somehow, I look around, try to convince myself that I’m sane enough to make any fair opinion..but I’m totally biased..Well, people could always make opinion or interpretation that sounds great according to their sense and taste..It will be always in so much subjective way, I think..
Life is a like a journey..It’s pretty nice to think that somehow we’re in the straight path into the destiny..While in the middle of this journey, we often look around..The scene beside is very fascinating to put away, so we decided to give it a shot, eventhough we realized that it will take much longer to complete our real destination..We spare a thought for this new one, and as we get involved, we often choose to not let go this open-arm chance..And then we try to convince ourselves that this might be the only one remains. We ended up the journey right before we completed it..cause we said that if we moved on and throw this one away, we couldn’t ever look back..
Dear folks, I’m coming back home..For long time I’ve been in idle, I think it’s not worth risking my day without put my mind into the lines..
Sometimes I feel i’m in a kind of bad relationship with myself. Many times I started to write a line, my mind interrupted. Before I’ve completed a single thought, I have changed my focus to another case which is sound the same important with the previous one..
Well, it seems that simplifying the way of thinking has never been more complicated than this..
Forget about it, yet now I’m back..with all I am..
Glad to be right here again, freezing in the front of my PC, wondering what to write, converting them into lines..
I’ve been thinking of my own dreams, these are things that make me quite overjoyed, a little bit unrealistic but not enough to say that I’m nuts,..;p. I thought it would be better to have mad thinking than any other common dream.
Who knows that it may be true? Who knows that it would be better than what I had in my imagination? For me, my dreams have made more power for me to look around, passionately pursuing challenges, and turned me better than before.
